LINES I LOVE THE MOST

There was in a courtyard,
an old cement wall.
Thunder lightning, nothing could
touch it at all.

It was cold and sturdy and topped
with bits of glass
It defied age, time or reason, it let
nobody pass.


One day through a tiny crack
there emerged
A tiny green stem with a leaf
still unfurled.

It has no soil to hold on to,
no water at all.
It had nothing in with the
old grey wall.

But slowly the tiny green stem
grew roots.
And the stem branched out
into multiple shoots.

Soon a crack appeared in the
unshakable wall.
Those who preserve, conquer
it all.



Honoring greatness.

To achieve something gives a great feeling. And sometimes to let it go gives greater

Question: As I sit here in office,I think: Why did I do bad in CFA xam?

Response : There are many explanations [and reactions] that may soothe my frens n family:
"Course was too tough",Ma.
"At least you tried",Papa.
"He he",Supriyo
"Keep your fingers crossed",Didi.
"Mere saath diyo ab june mein",Karthik.
"saale tu bahut bada negative thinker hai, tera ho jayega"Nikhil Bhai

"Rehne do****Kyuin",Khushboo

"hmmmmmm",Vidhushi.
"Office was too hectic,man"Deep

Past : I would not say this was my first xam where I did bad. Scored 22/50 in english gram in 2nd. Scored 53/100 in maths in 10th. 64/100, English - 10th. 37/100, Sanskrit-8th, was amongst last 3-4 guys in nursery and KinderGarden. But I never took as them defeats. I always laughed at the teachers and took them as opportunities to score more. A few times, I did and many a times I didn't. I am no Hero. But good thing was: I didn't loose battles without fighting. I was always happy fighting.

Present: But this time it was different. I lost it. I didn't laugh at it. And I have not taken this as a challenge, this time. It's different. Its not a Zen's calm. It is a tired person's acceptance of defeat.

Race: Now does that make me one among those who are at the bottom of the race [Races don't go left to right or right to left these days; they go top to bottom and bottom to top. Gives you the liberty to pull the legs of ones above you or watch thru their legs. Great if your boss is a She. Also, keep pissing on ones below you. Learned this at the org i m working for:) CopyRight - KapilGoyal] No that does nt make me one below the ones above me. I feel myself trapped in a marathon, where everyone wants to come first. I am standing right in the center of this running rushing crowd pushing me along willingly/unwillingly.

Me: I am tired of running. I stand demotivated. Out of the purple haze, I am trapped in the $$$HAZE$$$ - worst thing that could happen to me. I find a way out: find solace listening to Sri-2 RaviShanker. But then I forgot his lessons the moment I lost his sight. Anyways, life has not been all that cruel to me. I will fight back and win. Caz that is me. But then, why have I to fail once before making it heads. God is great and he always will be. I search for a race I would love to be a part of. I-Banking is day(s) in-thing. Today/tomorrow I will turn this around but will I do what I enjoy most doing in life:Talking. Or I will I keep venting out my anguish [over this over-awed society of mine] only on blogs. I have promised myself that I will do four things for sure in life: ***Serve my parents [Nothing new] ***Make a film ***Open a charity school in my grandpa's village ***____*** I am keeping fourth blank for anything new that comes to life.

Gyan: You have to come to terms with life. You have to keep the bar low. Probably, I feel more clear about my life now. Right. A balanced life like a balanced diet is the solution. Every thing has to be done. It is not an acceptance of defeat but a pleasure of realising: Life is important.

Prediction: On the timescale, my story will be like this : **Health[mental and physical]**Amrika.**Study.**Ibanking**Money**Marriage**Serve.**2-3 maal gf's [my daughters]**Direct[a film]/Write a book**Open Charity School**Smile&Pass-Away**.

Question: Life is simple. Isn't it?