Life is weird.

Life is weird. Things just don't seem to make sense. People walk backwards. Cars drive backwards. More importantly, we can't really seem to get inside the head of the body we inhabit: it's as though they are two separate selves. Man ditches his lovers, has sex with dogs, and then seduces them. Every Sunday he takes money out of the collection plate at temple. He finds bits of himself in the trash: teeth, hair, and so forth. The man works as a doctor, breaking small children who come to see him. Aversion to the doctor is there,the heinous acts he performs both on the children and in everyday life are worth imagining. Life goes on . Doctors kills the all of us until time finally flows backwards to the one era and place in which it all makes sense : the source of the doctor's literal, and spiritual, guilt. This causes a crisis of identity within all of us . What could have caused time to flow backwards and morality to reverse in the first place? We are all confused. People are stealing heads of others to make money. My organs lie safe in the wardrobe. I am happy that doctor doesnt know me. I play gulli-danda without the stick.Himalayan trees start shedding diamonds in place of apples.

AND POLITICIANS BECOME HONEST.

CFA my journey..unaccomplished

Saw n no. of people writing on the blog spot n as the thing gets more of a symbol of being intellectually hip-hop ; lemme try my hand. i m still figuring out ..DO not PPL hav better things things to do.

While i write, I still think what shall I write about ? The long holidays I enjoyed on the Kerala beaches or the political rebuttal , coup , frustrating stories in institution ; survival of the fittest stories of office ; all of that stuff I can find in my other blogs . So, shall I write that!! Nah! Never!

CFA is hot on my mind. Like a three yr old nursery kid hates going to school. I hate going to office just on the pretext that I have a lot to study for CFA. After lots of ifs n buts I move ahead n as said when you can’t avoid rape just lie down n enjoy it. I just go and work comes back.

Work! Is there a way u can earn without working ..If u know a way pls let me know. I am not sure how long I will enjoy working with a sleep work eat n shit schedule as I feel underutilized in life. But as it is a demand-supply world ,u cant fall below the supply line , because your competitors will make sure that you don’t exist . Anyways to me it is like hedging the gains again into the drain and not utilizing them as wealth .But throwing them again into the vicious circle of capital input. The multiplier effect adds to this. To buy a laptop and a CFA registration become more important than to go to the nearest gym.

When I see well educated, city bound, hush-hush, ppl. Not bulging an inch in heavily a crowded bus. Reaching out to moons and stars when earth is yet to be explored . Not standing in Qs . Not accommodating with the people they live day in and day out . Rising to 30 th malas just for space. Its a space crunch and no reality boom can ever help this .Come to my village .You can play golf in my drawing room. May GOD GIVE THEM SPACE TO THESE IN HIS OWN HOME.I question education. We have lost space in our hearts .Logic has overpowered us.

A two yr toddler trying unsuccessfully to tie his always falling underwear . I feel equally hapless. When u cant see the end but only the journey n u have this habit of not living in present u feel like this toddler. But then the great gurus have given the gyan of living happily in present which seems more of a rhetoric den anything else . Great gyan but hard to follow. I can learn from this toddler more than the gyan gurus flashing on all sorts of TV channels.

I am still not on the topic as the mind thinks in the most haphahazd way I don’t stop it to think like that and yes this is may one of the worst sequesnced blogs you may have ever read but this bit of writing truly reflects hows my prep for CFA going:D .Logic has overpowered us.We want evrery piece on the earth to follow science, logic . History repeats and intellect wont survive for long. I wish this world to become the most haphazard place. Discovery should have its charm alive ever.

Let my next blog try to give a better bigger picture.